Top 10 things I'm looking forward to in 2010

As tagged by Esther Teoh, an extremely good buddy of mine :) Check out her incredibly professional looking blog here.

In 2010, I will be. . .

1. 10 more kgs down the road - I shall hold back on the dieting as soon as this is accomplished. I'll admit, I've let go a lil during the hols. But I will resume all vigorous exercise as soon as the year kicks in. Sites like Real Age help a lot with healthy and fulfilling dieting tips.

2. Exploring new horizons - by this I mean, possibly, a different life in a different country, out on my own. Ryan once told me that he's curious to see how I'd turn out once away from my family. I'll admit, I'm curious too. There are lots of things I do for em and lots of things I don't do because of em. All to make them happy. Should I get into a UK uni, I will leave in 2010. And if not, the year after that.

3. Spending some good quality time with friends - the thing about IMU is, you make amazing friends. Or at least have met interesting people that teach you valuable lessons in life. It's a shaping process. I'd like some time with the more amazing ones who have taught me the value in being a good friend.

4. Achieving my second A perhaps? I know, it's EOS 5 and if I haven't gotten that A since summatives 2 in my first year - (the As for some papers don't count) - I probably can't get it. I've been a decent B student all this while which is fine, seeing that I've been incredibly active on many extracurricular fronts. I shall remain positive.

5. Going to the IMU Ball! Will I get a date? I doubt it. Then again, it was always more fun going with a group of friends. But it would be nice. I've never gotten a date to a ball before. The last one didn't count as a ball, it was a grand dinner. And my date was...well, I'm not too sure if I could have called it a date.

6. Handing down my position in SRC - Haha. The council has given me invaluable experience, indefinitely. And I think everyone in it will agree that we emerged from it with a lot more maturity and wisdom to deal with a working environment in the future. I feel older already! I'd never take back the experience for sure but well, another year of it? I think not!

7. Spending more time with my family - I love my family, as odd and weird as it gets sometimes. Hearing stuff about each dysfunctional family member I have gets me riled up. I defend em with a blind sense of loyalty that is terribly biased. But I do believe, time away from em would make me miss em terribly. Especially my grandparents and cousins.

8. Spending less time on the internet - life has been getting interesting enough -and portable enough- for me to not have a laptop consistently on my lap. HAH!

9. Associating myself with people who deserve my time and TLC <- I've always been wanting to use that in a sentence, here's one that actually means it's worth!

10. Looking forward to my birthday! - I still have no idea what to do. Party at home? Dinner outside? Small or big affair? I don't quite know. But what I do know is that, if I call friends, they'll be the ones that matter =)

And yes, that's about it. Honestly, it took me a while to think of 10. I really am not expecting much from my year. I would say the top 4 have utmost importance, the rest don't rank in any particular order.

I guess the best lesson I learnt this year was to not have expectations. And truth be told, that lesson helped shield me a lot from what would have broken me years ago.

"I want your ugly, I want your disease, I want your everything as long as it's free, I want your love, love, love, love,"

Ah Lady Gaga. You got it quite right with that one.

Happy 2010 folks.

Bring it, baby.

Quickie #1

I love my life

*hugs self tightly*

=D

Life, is just awesome. There are many things worth living for and I'm blessed with tonnes of family and friends to be spurred on to greater heights to achieve immeasurable success, despite all the negativity the world has to offer.

I guess it's all a matter of perspective.

Excuse this hallmark-card-like post. There is much that has happened that I'm eternally grateful for.

=)

Musing #4

I think I know way too many people for my own good. It's been people,people,people these past 2 weeks.

Wake me up when February comes.

"Here comes your man,"

"Never wait so long,"

Life has been, eventful, despite the Dipster saying otherwise. I will exercise when it's time to do so!

:P

His disapproving looks are very demotivating.

I've had no me-time. My internet time is devoted to one thing at a time: either checking my email or Facebook - those 2 things go together seeing that I can receive up to 50 messages from Facebook in a single day.

I've had no time to upload pics from all endeavours that I've been preoccupied with.

I'm not blogging as much as I want to.

I want to disappear and live in isolation till I feel the urge to socialize again.

Have any of you ever had days where you just don't feel like seeing people and you can't avoid it because if you do, folks are gonna think something's wrong with you or that you're moody or that something's bugging you etc?

And so you face the masses. With a fake smile this time while thinking in your head that you'd just love to be elsewhere, all alone.

Ah loneliness. There are 2 ends of it. The one that sucks and the one that's absolute bliss.

I think I shall now read a book.

Musing #3

When you have the same mutual friends, stories and versions of a tale will always carry around.
It's the people who stay above all of that who don't judge, who take everything with a pinch of salt, that you can call mature.

Thanks guys =)

Nights

"Outside there's a box car waiting
Outside the family stew ew ew ew
Outside the fire breathing
Outside we wait 'til face turns blue,"

I won't play your games. I like my seat from the sidelines.

"I know the nervous walking
I know the dirty beard hang hang hangs
Out by the box car waiting
Take me away to nowhere plains
There is a wait so long (so long, so long)
You'll never wait so long...."

You know you'll never find another me. Haha. And you most definitely, regret it.

"Here comes your man
Here comes your man
Here comes your man an an
Here comes your man,"

As they all say, I'm waaaay above you. I could be all that you make me out to be. But I won't. Because like I said, I'm above you all.
No more.
No more at all.

You're petty, insignificant and you mean no more to me. Have fun concocting your stories to get universal support because guess what?

No one believes ya.

Lazy

Yes, I've changed my template.
Yes, I've yet to fix the links.
Yes, lots of things are missing from my sidebar.
Yes, I realised everything that's not here from the previous template.
And yes, I found the previous one a bit too dull after a while.

But.

I am lazy. And I will sleep now.

Thank you.

*curtsies*

Owl City

For the benefit of all, I have uploaded Owl City's entire album for listening pleasure.

It just makes me oh-so happy listening to em <3

My favourites are Meteor Shower, Vanilla Twilight, Fireflies -of course- and The Bird and The Worm.

Finally, an album of music that really doesn't have any sexual annotations to it. Not that I mind the sexual annotations. It's just so...innocent. Child-like.

Enjoy!

"And when the going is getting tough,"

"And we're all about givin' up,"

The more time I spend with Keith, the more I love about him.

"Cuz I'm still learnin' the art of love, I'm still tryin' to not mess up,"

I had an incredible day today. Recalling it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

*hugs self*

I've recently figured out how to record stuff through Garage Band. It's an application on Macintosh that lets you put together music, record vocals and your basic tinkering around with your instruments. It records sooo well and well, it actually makes me sound, well, good.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about oh-so many things. And I guess everything that's been happening all this while just gives me further insight as to what I really want for my future and what types of people I'd prefer to be in company with. It's all been rather enlightening, really. I find myself abstaining from the weirdos. I know way too many and all they really do is just make life a whole lot more complicated than it needs to be.

I abstain from drama queens/kings as well. I'm really born in the wrong race for it though, aren't I? I

And I've been giving some thought to life partners and companions. I guess an ideal partner would be someone who could blend in with my family and mix around with us without me feeling awkward that he might be feeling out of place with my family.

And as much as he would find some things that my family does, a bit ridiculous or something he'd never do or apply, it'd be nice if he were accommodative. Not compromising anything but also, not wanting to start up a fight. Yes, I think I'd like a diplomat in my potential partner. Who'd know how to play the cards. You see, that way, I wouldn't have to worry for cleaning up any messes he'd make. It'd be nice if he analyzed everyone in my family before he started dumping his crazy on them.

In a way, I guess my partner-to-be would have to also have a good relationship with my family. The more time I spend with them, the more important I realise this bit of criteria is.

I'd like someone who gets along with all my kid cousins and will help me protect and look out for em. Of course, he'd have his own family. But I'd like to help him with his too.

I don't know why I've been thinking about this a lot. I guess my cousins getting married and people I know headed in that direction as well have sorta triggered this line of thinking.

*

"Time together is never quite enough,"

Today was fun.

Thank you.

: )

"Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you,"

"Cuz everything you do in words you say, you know that it just takes my breath away and now I'm left with nothing,"

There have been so many little things happening of late that have just etched a smile on my face when I least expect it.

It's funny how when clouds come, the silver lining shines brighter than ever. And more than often, bright enough to purge those horrid clouds away!

Ok, I'm gonna stop before I start sounding like an ad for Teletubbies or some other equivocal kid's show. As long as it doesn't feature very gay men doing a dance to a song like 'Hot Potato', I think I'm alright.

Of late, I haven't been able to sleep. Our family holiday is sometime this week, exact date yet to be confirmed due to my uncle's brilliant timing and incredible knack for getting all of us to drop what we're doing the moment he comes up with a final plan. I'm guessing it'd be midweek or towards the end of it. Which gives me Monday with Ryan and Tuesday or Wednesday free with Joanne, Sandip aka The Dipster and hopefully Sooky and Chong Sen.

PS, Chong Sen? Your BS presentation was AWESOME. You were such an entertaining natural!

"Because it takes 2 to whisper quietly,"

Interesting revelations from very supportive friends have shed very good light on some things. If you feel like you're the one who's been giving and giving and not been doing any taking, then maybe it isn't a friendship worth fighting more anymore.

I've applied that line of thought to 2 people of late. And I have no regrets. As Rainbow put it, "Apathy is always worse than hate,"

Because hate dissipates. It disappears just as intensely as it sets in. And when it goes, there's a void you either use to fill with a different hate or other distracting emotions.

But apathy is more of a long-term thing. And it always did cause a lot more pain when someone who used to care about you just doesn't anymore.

Time with the family has been awesome. We've been hanging out at my grandma's, going shopping -oh good gods, the clothes I have!-, watching movies at home or at the cinema, doing girly things like manicures and getting our hair done -I kid you not- and of course, I've been spending some quality time with my beloved macbook, Keith. He's been awesome, incredibly fast, sexy and pleasing me in every way I fancy.

; )

There was Aunty Thaya's birthday:

And then there was our splurging and binging sessions:

And there was Princess Shasha's birthday celebration: which was awesome btw. We went to Groove Junction. The food was awesome and the live band pretty good though they started off with a bit of electronic jazz and then started playing the slower stuff as the night progressed.

Brown Woman with Mama and Papa : P

*sings* Isn't she lovely, isn't she wonderful? : )

Wow that's a lot of pics. And man I've been up to a lot. Today was possibly the most lax day I've had in weeks!

Stay tuned for more Brown Woman escapades ; )

PS - Avatar was awesome, go catch it yall!